Between the stress of the job search and the U.S. election, I have fallen back on fanart as a coping mechanism. Today’s drawing is the last of the reds for this year’s Huevember challenge.
I’ve been pretty quiet lately, but I’ve been busy! Not only have I been on the hunt for a job, but I also had to wrap up this commission for a long-time loyal client. I’m always happy to come up with new G.I.Joe art, and the money I made from it paid for a new pair of ankle boots – just in time for a job interview! Huzzah!
Long time no blog!
And I have an excellent reason for that: since the end of the “30 Paintings in 30 Days”challenge, I have had to face the facts (and the finances), and hustle my butt to get a job. This is a particularly arduous task because I’ve been a full-time parent for the last decade, and, like most stay-at-home-moms returning to the workforce, I have lost all of my confidence (to be fair, though, it was never very high).
To make matters worse, my former industry (computer animation) is very tech-heavy and very youth-oriented. I was certain that I wouldn’t be able to make sense of any 3D software after being away from it for so many years, and even if I did manage to wrap my head around it, I’d be a middle-aged woman surrounded by bright-eyed 20-somethings (cue Sesame Street’s “One Of These Things Is NOT Like The Others”… or was that from The Electric Company? Oh God, my memory is failing already!).
Fortunately for me, I still have friends in medium-high places, and one of them is willing to pass on my demo reel (watch it here on YouTube!) to his studio’s HR dept. I have a copy of the latest version of Maya, and I’m happy that most of my animator’s instincts have come back to me. There’s no guarantee that this will turn into an actual contract, of course, but it’s the most positive outside feedback I’ve had in a long time. Believe me, I will take what I can get!
The other reason why I’ve been quiet lately is because I’m tired of the Face Studies – not because I dislike making them, but because I want to concentrate on original work. The trouble is, I can’t decide what I want to do or how I want to do it (the usual refrain), and this lack of original work weighs on me more and more with each passing day. With all that stress, who has the gumption to make ART?
Well, I’ve written up the glowing cover letters, I’ve fine-tuned the resume, and I’ve re-cut the demo reel. They’re out there in the world at this very moment, impressing or boring recruiters as we speak. There’s nothing left for me to do except wait*.
So Hell YEAH, let’s make some art! Inktober may have started weeks ago, but better late than never. 😉
*And panic. Can’t forget to panic.
What can I say? This guy has a really interesting face, and since my grand plans for a Fine Art career are on hold for the moment, I might as well indulge in some studies. That being said, this is also a perfect example of a drawing where I didn’t really decide on a plan of action before sitting down to draw. By that, I mean: is my intention to make a quick values study (like the first one), or do I want to REALLY get into every single line and pore and make this as realistic as I can (and by the way, if you’re going to do that, do yourself a favour and begin with a high-res reference image. Don’t try to make something out of nothing, like I did here). Because I changed my mind as the drawing went along, I feel like it’s neither as photo-realistic as I want to be, nor is it as breezy and fresh as the first drawing. It’s just kinda… “neither here, nor there”.
Back to work!